316 : A Sweet Tale

I was very lucky to grow up with all four grandparents.  My dad's parents were local and my mom's parents were just a couple hours away.  My parents always believed in the importance of family, so as a child I had a close relationship with my grandparents.  All of them.  Both of my grandfathers passed before I was married or had kids.  They never got to meet my husband (now Ex) or see me walk down the aisle.  I laugh about that now that I am divorced because I guess it didn't really matter.  Sadly, though, they also never got a chance to see me as a mother or meet my kids.  Both of my grandmas did.  They both met my oldest son but then my dad's mother passed before my youngest was born.  After her funeral our entire extended family spent some time at her house and everyone selected what they wanted to keep of her personal belongings.  One of my cousins suggested I take a pink beaded necklace, telling me the color was good for me.  At the time, I had NO idea what I wanted of my grandma's.  She was such an amazing woman, I couldn't summarize our relationship through one item.  There was not one thing in particular that stuck out, and so I just did as I was told and took the necklace.  I tucked it into my jewelry drawer at home and never thought much more about it.  But the funniest thing happened.  One day my youngest son, discovered this necklace.  He went into my drawer almost daily, pulled out the necklace and wore it around his neck.  It was sweet to me that it was this necklace in particular that he always seem to want.  My boys fought over just about everything but somehow it was understood that this necklace specifically belonged to my youngest.  He'd proudly wear it around the house for a bit and then drop it (when I would immediately retrieve and put it back).  At first I thought this was just a funny coincidence.  But as time passed, I began to feel like it was truly my grandma's influence in some way.  She was watching from above and in her own special way, creating a bond with my son.  To some, this may sound like a stretch.  To me though, it absolutely a sign.  So you may wonder, how was this story in any way related to my personal journey of restoring myself?  Well, I think in some way, it gave me faith.  It reminded me that the universe was so much bigger than just me.  It was bigger than just the present moment.  And as silly as it may sound, this tiny interaction between my son and a necklace warmed my heart like nothing else.