Is there something wrong with me that I don't think I feel any love for my Ex still? Does this make me a bad person? I mean, I trusted this person. I thought it was forever with this person. I loved him. And now, a year later and I don't feel any love for him. At all. Is that wrong? The other night, we had a money oriented conversation. I had worried about said conversation for 3 solid days. 1 Conversation. I was nervous about how to approach it and even more nervous about how he would receive it. Still, I prepared. And when we spoke that night...it went well. Well. It wasn't great but it was well. I'd take it. In fact, it felt like this was a milestone. I had a difficult conversation with no emotion behind it. I felt like that was another milestone. I felt no anger. I wasn't hurt. I addressed my Ex like a business parter; direct and to the point. And he responded as though he received it that way!!!! Touchdown! And then, the best part of all was that after we spoke, I called my parents to let them know it went well and then I didn't think about it again that night. A HUGE milestone!
We agreed to a shared google document that tracked all commission activity. It would be better for both of us to have a record and a shared reference was even better. He said he was going to meet his obligations financially. And I believed that was his intention. We had many years ahead of us where things could change. But for now, I was thankful we had established a reasonable method of tracking this and neither of us were put off by the conversation. That was certainly progress.
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